WHEEEE THIS IS MY 4TH POST IN A DAY :D

i kinda like the multiple posts in a day thing
hahas

anyways im feeling sorta stressed up cuz of my piano exams
i dont even like piano in the first place
i feel that im wasting my parents money if i continue :(
wells i tried telling my dad. but then he said if i quit then the money for the piano will go to waste, then sell it u mite think , well thats wad i said. and i got a scolding. i reali think that the money for my piano lessons coulve have been put to better use like dance lessons or sumthing cuz thats like sumthing tt i reali enjoy . and to make it worse , my piano teacher keeps giving me a lot of stress, and i think she doesnt noe how to teach. for eg.

if i play a wrong note:

she'll just tell me the correct note

like wad use is that to me? i noe the right note. mayb she could show me or correct the fingering or whatsoever . of all things she had to just tell me.

if i dont practice:

i get a fcuking big scolding for not practicing

whats with that? well i wish i could just tell her that she doesnt motivate me to practice so i dont practice . i'd love to see her face after that. well, it is kinda true, in the first place i am not even the slightest bit interested in piano but she makes me hate it so much that i completely refuse to practice. even the tiniest urge to touch the piano is completely swallowed by my anger and ignored.

if i get good marks for my piano exams:

barely a word of encouragement or praise or anything that falls in the definition of moral support

she makes me feel like my achievements are not recognised. despite that i have been putting up with her and piano for 6-7 years
and guess wad? im onli grade 5?? all thanks to her .
despite me getting distinctions for almost all exams i am not allowed to skip grades as if that was bad enough ,i had to spend another year on grade 3 because she felt that i wasnt good enough to take the exams GAHH i think that i am ready enough for any exam and that i shld be able to skip grades...

i bet that this is just a scam to make my dad pay more money on piano classes...
luckily i wont be experiencing this kind of thing after september. i think i'll most probably changing teacher or even better quitting.

just as i was walking to the bus stop after piano lesson i had the sudden urge to take a bus to tampines mall and pierce my ear . duno y . of all things to pierce my ear hahas. well in the end i didnt of course. i kinda wish i did .. but my dad doesnt reali approve of me piercing my ear. say that i will become very vain and stuff.
then wad? dont pierce my ear and be a tomboy and in future become a homo? ok la thats very far fetched but it could happen hahas not implying anything.
ahh i guess thats enough ive vented my anger and im going to w8 until the december hols where im gonna pierce my ear with tanying whether my dad likes it or not